Other times, I normally would meet the people who had died. Like I would hear that that Geri Stucki died, the next thing I knew, Geri Stucki was there me it was her. One thing that I noticed by these people was they would be the same way that I had known them in real life. They were always playing my perspective. This confused me, I would see them in my head the same way I remembered them. When they were still alive I also would talk telepathically in my head. I had both alive and dead people’s spirits talking and hanging out with me. They would control my body. Sometimes making me unable to do basic things, such as go to the restroom. My dad told me that they could only captivate one body at a time. They normally had something against me. Then I would change their opinion about me so that they thought I was more special and see that I cared a lot about each of them.
“Auditory (hearing voices that other people can’t hear. (2)” I felt this all the time. Sometimes I will still see things and hear things, but life is getting to be less loud in my head. Sometimes, when I hear a lot of noises in the background, it reminds me of how far I’ve come. I never want to go back through this again, but I don’t regret it.
“lack of emotion- the inability to enjoy regular activities (visiting with friends, etc.) as much as before(2)” I would distance myself from everyone except the people in my imaginary world. Some of the people in the world were always talking to me also.
“Low energy- the person tends to sit around and sleep much more than normal(2)” I was always out of energy, and I had no desire to change that. I guess sometimes I would be tired of that but most of the time I would want to sleep. At the time I didn’t want to loose contact with my passed on grandma.
“Lack of interest in life, low motivation(2)” I got so I didn’t care if I lived or if I died. It felt like I was passing from world to world- life was to close to death I still don’t know what was true. I wasn’t scared of death and I got tried of living being so hard for me. But now I am glad that I am still alive.