“Delusions of grandeur- for example, when you believe that you are very special or have special powers or abilities (2).” I felt that I knew how to speak every language, and that I was special and chosen by God to suffer like Jesus suffered. I even would try to stop people in my head from killing themselves. I even dragged myself up fourteen stairs and over to my room without anyone knowing about it. I felt I was temporarily paralyzed. I felt I had to experience everything. I had such a heavy burden to carry; it was such a relief to me to drop that burden and go back to only worrying about my own life. I remember talking to some that I know earlier in life that had killed themselves would come to me for me to make it right in their lives.
“Visual (seeing things that are not there or that other people cannot see)(2),” I was always seeing snakes talking to me. I even saw a lot of Indians and other types of people come and talk to me. I have talked to Sojourner Truth, Chief Joseph, Martin Luther King Jr., Joseph Smith Jr. and other people who struggled in the beginnings of this country. Some of the people come and are the way that I imagined them, but sometimes they are meaner. Disrespectful toward me until they get to know me better. The way that I am taught of what they have been through and that is what they add to.
For example, I even met a slave girl who wanted me to suffer and she made the lights in the house go on and off. She was an evil spirit who tried to scare me. She would also help me have troubles mowing and doing my work. I would talk often to her in my head. In my minds’ eye she made my tire fall off while I was mowing. This brought more struggle. She would help me imagine how life would have been for her as a slave who was most definitely mistreated. And then I would hear her master yelling at her. I also got some indication that she was raped by him.