How can someone with such uniqueness, be able to fit in such a category and fit. Some of the unique things that go on in everyday life vary, but if you don't know you are schizophrenic, you believe the voices. One thing they may convince you of is your carry a job like Jesus does... sure you have your own mission. But I was convinced that I lived for the suicides... that my life was to rescue them from that misfortune of death from suicide. It was like Jesus because he rescues us from our sins.
It was an overwhelming job. Everyone was depressed, telling you how bad you were after telling you how good you were.
Even though at first they were telling you positive, unbelievable things that were you... later they always would tell you how awful you were. How you mess up and have no control over it.
These voices never love you. They make you follow because you want their friendship...but they are not human. they tell you that they are your friend when they constantly tell you how to kill yourself.
Thank goodness it was a lie... they are heartless. We have the chose what to listen too, Even I do.
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