God gives us trials to us as gifts. some things in life we don't see them as that way. I know that I have learned so much from my schizophrenia. I think that it is cool when i meet someone who has it. my psr worker was wondering why she was put through cancer as badly as she was. I feel that God knows when we are ready for an experience that will help us be better. after my grandma died i was given a phriesthood blessing that sometimes if we don't take the easier ways of learning something, God will teach us another way because he sees our potaintial. it warned me to learn things the easy way or i too would have to learn the hard way. God sure has his reasons. sometimes we are put through things to show to ourseleves how strong we really are. God has faith that we will succeed. He knows we can do it. who better to trust than someone who created us. as someone who loves us and has our greatest joy in mind. during these hard times you learn to rely on the lord. sometimes it is hard to tell what is what... naturally there will be both evil and good forces there. but god doesn't expect us to do it alone. he comes along. he is there listening.... i challenge you for the things that you ask yourself.... why me.... to consider that with in yourself. ponder it adn see how it is wisdom in god... so far that it is a gift from God. I see my trial of schizophrenia as a gift. i know that i am often struggling with the basics on the holy Ghost. But you know what.... I learned. that is the important thing. i have compassion, i have seen myself go through things. and i know how i would react to things since in my mind that is what happens. I know that my wisdom is stronger because of my experiences. I know how it is to struggle with different challenges, even to some they may not be real... it is real to me.... i learned more respect for myself. i saw how i hit my trials. how i learned from them... what good is it if you don't find the best in it. i am grateful for my healing. what a blessing. like with the blind man in the bible asking who do the sin... it was done so that his miracle can be manifested to everyone. sometimes god needs to show you and others these things to witness a miracle. some dye from trials.... but we know that they are taken care with God there trials are through... Some live.... they teach people miracles... because through God they survived. they gain strength that no other way would teach them so much at such a fast rate.. that is what i have learned.

I had a wonderful blessing. I was blessed that I would enjoy this week. I sure am. It feels like I am closer to God, like I have more of is power with me. The blessing said that I would be able to be helped with the things I stand in need of. I am getting closer to Jeremy again. He is wonderful. I am so grateful that I get along so well with his mom. She is wonderful. I can't wait until we can do crafts together. I am grateful for the atonement. I love Heavenly Father. He is so good to me. He listens to me and answers my prayers. He values me... he values each one of us. So is so much good in our lives. God and people make the difference. Like grandpa used to say... me and Jesus. It is so true that Jesus is on our side. He is there knocking. He knows what we need. Sometimes we don't know what to ask for. So you pray for guidance to be lead on what your suppose to say. It will work I can testify of that. I have helped change many people's lives by praying for them in their face. I pray that I will be guided on what to say. That my prayer will make the difference in their lives. God is there for us. People need to know that. He loves us. Do you know what a difference that makes to know that he loves us and that he is over all. Who better to be over us than someone who loves us and wants the best for us. Prayers are answered everyday... maybe more than every second. There is nothing more exciting than to have God a part of our lives. There is nothing more thrilling than to know that you are pleasing God. That you are doing to the best of your knowledge what your suppose to be doing. There is no one that you can keep in your life that is so consistent. No one that is more compassionate. No one that is more helpful. (including Jesus, Holy Ghost, and God) who better to turn to when you are having difficulty. Who better than your maker. He knows all, he sees all, and he wants and knows what is best for you. How grateful I am to know him. How grateful that he has the patients to know me, and for me to get to know him. He knocks, he seeks are you going to return that call. Are you going to pay the cheapest phone bill in your life to a further place? Now that you know, what are you going to do with that knowledge, are you going to let your light shine. And show your good works and glorify your father that is in heaven. You can put your trust in him. He will not fail you now... he didn't fail you then. Trust in the lord with all of thine heart in all thine ways acknowledge him and he shall direct thee for good. What a wonderful promise.

life gets better and better. it is great to have heavenly father in our lives. he is there to guide us in everything that we want. consoul in the lord with all of thou doings when thou layest down at night let it be unto the lord in thanks for the day. when thou risiest in the morning give thanks for him watching over you though the night. this isn't an exact quote... but we need to be greatful. i am grateful that God has so much faith in me that he put me through schizophrenia. It was nice of him to see such benifets. it is nice that he looks at thigns with such wisdom. htere are many things in our life that are there to benifit us. our God is a loving heavenly father. he is there to help us be a better person. yes he lets us have trials.... what a blessing they are in our lives. I wouldn't understand so much if he would have taken that oprtunitnity away from me. we are here on this earth to learn and to show ourselves how strong we are. he knows we can do it. he doesn't set us up to fail. he sets us up to succeed. he sent jesus to go through everything, he even had God's spirit withdrawl so that he will truly understand how it is for us when we sin. he went beneath us all. maybe we should look to heavenly father and trust him. trust that he knows what he is doing. he is there. by faith he teaches us to be more like him. wouldn't it be wonderful to be like him. someone so perfect,,,, someone who sees the good in things that we have troubles seeing in. wouldn't it be nice to see things from his prospective. to see things as if we were at one with god. that his will was ours. that we would want to go through the trials that he has prepared special for us. so that we can grow. how much better we will be. i know that he has knowledge and that he knows each one of us... he knows what will help us and what will destroy us. those people that are given these trials....which is everyone... has something in their character that will help us through them. God is there teaching us step by step how to be like him./ don't you want that. wouldn't the universe run wonderfully if we would act as the materialsike things and follow everything that God has in store for us. He gives us many chances... he doesn't give up on us.... so why shouldn't we take that example.... and trust him who knows all ..... the begining from the end.... and he doesn't give up... be has faith beyond what we can ever imagine... it is time that we show ourselves what God believes us to be... it is time that we use his overpowering faith and have his help to succeed. he knows ... its time that we know.... they say that god can do more for our lives than we can do for ourselves. it is time to give our agnecy to him... let him help us. to save us.... to follow and keep him in our lifes. it doesn't matter what religion you are god loves you... he loves us all. tell him everything. he is waiting for you... for us.... and he is patient,.....its our turn to find out who we are...