Now my counselor told me to start standing up for myself. I guess that means as well as controling what comes into my mind, he wants me to control what I take in. This would and won't be the place to start. I need to get my self-esteem better so that it won't bother me. I started to hear the voices again and they were making Jesus dark... when Jesus isn't dark... this bothered me. There are things that I learn to deal with. I would like to be less tired from the medication, and less voices. I don't want more voices, but I want to have more energy. The Schizophrenia and medications make me more sleepy.