God gives us trials to us as gifts. some things in life we don't see them as that way. I know that I have learned so much from my schizophrenia. I think that it is cool when i meet someone who has it. my psr worker was wondering why she was put through cancer as badly as she was. I feel that God knows when we are ready for an experience that will help us be better. after my grandma died i was given a phriesthood blessing that sometimes if we don't take the easier ways of learning something, God will teach us another way because he sees our potaintial. it warned me to learn things the easy way or i too would have to learn the hard way. God sure has his reasons. sometimes we are put through things to show to ourseleves how strong we really are. God has faith that we will succeed. He knows we can do it. who better to trust than someone who created us. as someone who loves us and has our greatest joy in mind. during these hard times you learn to rely on the lord. sometimes it is hard to tell what is what... naturally there will be both evil and good forces there. but god doesn't expect us to do it alone. he comes along. he is there listening.... i challenge you for the things that you ask yourself.... why me.... to consider that with in yourself. ponder it adn see how it is wisdom in god... so far that it is a gift from God. I see my trial of schizophrenia as a gift. i know that i am often struggling with the basics on the holy Ghost. But you know what.... I learned. that is the important thing. i have compassion, i have seen myself go through things. and i know how i would react to things since in my mind that is what happens. I know that my wisdom is stronger because of my experiences. I know how it is to struggle with different challenges, even to some they may not be real... it is real to me.... i learned more respect for myself. i saw how i hit my trials. how i learned from them... what good is it if you don't find the best in it. i am grateful for my healing. what a blessing. like with the blind man in the bible asking who do the sin... it was done so that his miracle can be manifested to everyone. sometimes god needs to show you and others these things to witness a miracle. some dye from trials.... but we know that they are taken care with God there trials are through... Some live.... they teach people miracles... because through God they survived. they gain strength that no other way would teach them so much at such a fast rate.. that is what i have learned.